Fuck You Very Much - I don't need that bullshit in my life.
I hate people who are judgemental though I am a hypocrite in saying that cos I probably judge people very quickly based on looks and hearsay from other people. But you know what? This is my blog so I can say what I want and right now there is something that occured a few weeks ago ....a comment that was made that until now I haven't really thought about which has now made me fire up.
So yes Grace's rant for the day....
When I was little I probably had a pretty sheltered childhood. I think sometimes that is why I don't know many things or why I act a bit childish now because all through my childhood my parents held a high regard for me getting the best education ( being the eldest also didn't help) and to them they didn't believe in kids "going out". Put it this way...I wasn't allowed to go out to Knox by myself until at least halfway through year 9 ( yet it is a miracle that my sister could go to the city from Year 8 ...damn younger kiddy winks!!! grrrr...) and wasn't allowed to go to discos in primary school etc.
Before I hit Kindergarten I knew how to write my name and could start putting basic words together, this was all due to my mum going to actual academic bookshops ( where teachers get their textbooks) and getting me workbooks imported from Malaysia/America where the standard of education is a bit higher. So yes in Grade 2 whilst many kids were out playing or at calisthenics I was "forced" to do workbooks!!! I guess my parent's tightness continued until around Year 10. So suprisingly when most other asian parents get all anal around Year 11 & 12 my mum was a lot more relaxed then and realised that her nagging me wasn't going to make me study harder. However I knew they still gave a damn about it all by the amount of money they invested into me in those 2 years....private tuition, extra books, revision lectures, revision session, summer/holiday classes, textbooks etc.
I guess until now when I am a bit older I haven't really ever appreciated all the time and care that my parents took in making sure that I was on the right path academically and as a person.
Before you start thinking...OMG GRACE HAS TURNED INTO A GOODY GOODY DORK. The reason why I am telling you this is that a comment made to me that "narrowminded people are those with refugee parents and come from a poor socioeconomical background" has made me write this. I am sure the person...perhaps didn't think what they were saying but to me this is such a huge insult to me, to those whose parents are like mine..who came here to give their kids a better life instead of being caught up in communist propoganda bullshit and to those that are actually refugees themselves.
How does me having refugee parents define me as a narrowminded person? You think because my parents didn't get a "higher education" that they are not good people and don't know how to think and raise kids?
If anything I believe that they are probably stronger people, having seen and lived through times of war, starvation where they didn't know if they would live to see another day. I am sure those people with "better socioeconomical background" would have never experienced a time where they went 8 days without any food, stuck on a boat fighting for their lives.
Who are you to generalise such bullshit like that? You think because your parents have a better educational background that they have raised kids better than refugee parents?
My parents fucking have worked their asses off so that we are not in a POOR SOCIOECONOMIC state. When my parents first came here from Vietnam...my dad worked 5 jobs getting about 3-4 hours of sleep a night just so he could earn enough to maintain his old car and start saving for a homeloan. My mum had to deal with working with all types of toxic chemicals and shit in a detergent factory.
Oh but thats right...your parents swanned in didn't they? cos they are better educated and hence lead better lives.
So for you to sit there on your fucking high horse and tell me that they didn't raise us right, that we are from a poor socioeconomic background makes me so angry.
Money and Education is NOT everything in life. Sure its nice to have plenty of it but it doesn't ever FUCKING define who we are as people. It is our experiences as people, morals and values that our parents have taught us that make up who we are.
So you can go and fuck yourself because I don't need that type of bullshit "friend" in life who looks down at me and my family, who disrespects my background, who thinks they are superior to all us "kids raised by refugees from poor socioeconomic background".
Yes perhaps I am being a complete bitch right now and am blowing this out of proportion but right now I feel that I need to speak out about this and rant so that people know that there are such fuckheads out there that really think like this.
So yes Grace's rant for the day....
When I was little I probably had a pretty sheltered childhood. I think sometimes that is why I don't know many things or why I act a bit childish now because all through my childhood my parents held a high regard for me getting the best education ( being the eldest also didn't help) and to them they didn't believe in kids "going out". Put it this way...I wasn't allowed to go out to Knox by myself until at least halfway through year 9 ( yet it is a miracle that my sister could go to the city from Year 8 ...damn younger kiddy winks!!! grrrr...) and wasn't allowed to go to discos in primary school etc.
Before I hit Kindergarten I knew how to write my name and could start putting basic words together, this was all due to my mum going to actual academic bookshops ( where teachers get their textbooks) and getting me workbooks imported from Malaysia/America where the standard of education is a bit higher. So yes in Grade 2 whilst many kids were out playing or at calisthenics I was "forced" to do workbooks!!! I guess my parent's tightness continued until around Year 10. So suprisingly when most other asian parents get all anal around Year 11 & 12 my mum was a lot more relaxed then and realised that her nagging me wasn't going to make me study harder. However I knew they still gave a damn about it all by the amount of money they invested into me in those 2 years....private tuition, extra books, revision lectures, revision session, summer/holiday classes, textbooks etc.
I guess until now when I am a bit older I haven't really ever appreciated all the time and care that my parents took in making sure that I was on the right path academically and as a person.
Before you start thinking...OMG GRACE HAS TURNED INTO A GOODY GOODY DORK. The reason why I am telling you this is that a comment made to me that "narrowminded people are those with refugee parents and come from a poor socioeconomical background" has made me write this. I am sure the person...perhaps didn't think what they were saying but to me this is such a huge insult to me, to those whose parents are like mine..who came here to give their kids a better life instead of being caught up in communist propoganda bullshit and to those that are actually refugees themselves.
How does me having refugee parents define me as a narrowminded person? You think because my parents didn't get a "higher education" that they are not good people and don't know how to think and raise kids?
If anything I believe that they are probably stronger people, having seen and lived through times of war, starvation where they didn't know if they would live to see another day. I am sure those people with "better socioeconomical background" would have never experienced a time where they went 8 days without any food, stuck on a boat fighting for their lives.
Who are you to generalise such bullshit like that? You think because your parents have a better educational background that they have raised kids better than refugee parents?
My parents fucking have worked their asses off so that we are not in a POOR SOCIOECONOMIC state. When my parents first came here from Vietnam...my dad worked 5 jobs getting about 3-4 hours of sleep a night just so he could earn enough to maintain his old car and start saving for a homeloan. My mum had to deal with working with all types of toxic chemicals and shit in a detergent factory.
Oh but thats right...your parents swanned in didn't they? cos they are better educated and hence lead better lives.
So for you to sit there on your fucking high horse and tell me that they didn't raise us right, that we are from a poor socioeconomic background makes me so angry.
Money and Education is NOT everything in life. Sure its nice to have plenty of it but it doesn't ever FUCKING define who we are as people. It is our experiences as people, morals and values that our parents have taught us that make up who we are.
So you can go and fuck yourself because I don't need that type of bullshit "friend" in life who looks down at me and my family, who disrespects my background, who thinks they are superior to all us "kids raised by refugees from poor socioeconomic background".
Yes perhaps I am being a complete bitch right now and am blowing this out of proportion but right now I feel that I need to speak out about this and rant so that people know that there are such fuckheads out there that really think like this.
posted by cookies @ 11:15 pm
1 Comments:
At 7:27 am,
Anonymous said…
hey Grace
I'm sorry you feel this way. You sure have kept this under your brow for awhile.
I know we have talked about this topic, but we were talking about the context of certain people who prefered not to integrate, how YOU disliked people who asked why you were hanging out with non-asian friends and reasons why they might feel that way.
I suggested since they have come from a refugee background, they might have felt more comfortable with that culture, similar with people who had those experiences.
This wasn't referring to you nor all refugees. That's ridiculous.
It was not a means of disrespect nor saying that low socioeconomic status causes this. But that the culture may cause them to have this 'gang' like culture you destested.
And for this, I make NO apologies because I do not have the disrespect you seem to accuse me of when in fact it is the opposite.
Sometimes, your parent's judgement or intution in who is a good and bad person may be better than your own and I would say, if you're going to blown something like that out of proportion, I don't think we're going to be able to have a conversation and thus friendship.
I've noticed the gap in thinking between us, it says nothing about either of us, it's just that we're different people. I guess that's why Christine was the bridge between us because we both feel comfortable with her.
And I guess I feel more comfortable with than I do with you - which is weird - I guess because we have similar thoughts and interests.
Which makes me wonder whether we can fundamentally relate because we are so different, for better or worse, and maybe we should part our ways.
I don't say this because I am upset over this outburst, or because of the present situation (bad pun I know), but just generally, things haven't been going so well and it feels like in the past we haven't been able to let go, something we both have a hard time doing.
So I'm not saying this with any anger. But I think we should call it quits. It gives me no qualms that you would want to think badly of me over the issue or the other issue, because though I do regret calling you that night, I guess it does reflect the inequality of our friendship and how I know more about you than you know about me in terms of interests.
Either that, or you couldn't be bothered. Which I don't want to believe. Ok.
Rant over. I hope we can come to think similarly on what happened. If not, I guess that's too bad. I'm not going to be losing any sleep over it.
- Christina
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