The demise of a friendship

From Dictionary.Com
2.termination of existence or operation: the demise of the empire.

So I have finally experienced my first "breakup" of a friendship. It was made official last Friday and I can't say I am terribly sad nor am I glad.

I admit that I saw this coming for awhile, just neither of us really made the first move to end it. It was almost like a tasteless cake ( yes always need to bring in the food terms). It looks gorgeous but it has no taste but you don't want to throw it out because it looks so nice still...

The more I think about it the more I wish I should have done it sooner. I almost feel like she has "won" by being the first to snob me off, though I shouldn't think of our friendship so competitively should I? Is it my pride perhaps?

It is sad in a way too that after so many years of friendship ( genuine or not is another matter) that it has come to this. I was recently asked " Why does she hate you so much?". I didn't think she did hate me as HATE is such a strong word that one needs to really think about what it truly means before just tossing it into casual conversation.

I think what makes me so angry now is that she is involving other people into this whole thing which should only be between me and her. But then on the other hand should it be her I should be mad at or those that have believed her words and who have left their loyalty to me as a friend behind for her lies?

It does explain a lot of weird behaviour I have noticed from certain people, but when I heard that she had been telling MY friends about it and trying to get people to "side" with her it makes my blood boil.

It's one thing to be angry at me or whatever but DONT TRY AND TURN MY FRIENDS AGAINST ME - especially when you are doing so by telling complete fabrications.

And to those people who say " I want to be mutual and not get involved" and then go and rant about me and say that " X" is right and "Grace doesn't know what she is talking about X would never do that" don't fucken pretend that you are genuine and trying to stay out of it when you have gone and practically declared whose side you are on by slagging me out to everyone. I don't even know how I feel about your betrayal at this point.

It seems that I am not having much luck at the moment with friends....just recently another incident occured in our "friendship group" that upset us all.

I guess as we get older we become to appreciate who our true friends are and that it is quality not quantity that matters.