Swirls of Life

Im suppose to be getting ready to go to uni for my org mgt class yet what am i doing? bloggin. ah well..time this needs a bit of an update anyway. I have recently been getting into the online habit of browsing through other people's blogs. Yes i know this may seem a tad bit creepy and stalkerish but i guess its the nosiness inside all of is to get a glimpse of how others are coping with life. And it seems that we all are facing some sort of crisis in our lives, where we dont know why we are here, don't know who our real friends are, don't know why we are studying the course/in the job that we are in and just generally feeling a bit detached from the rest of the world.

I cant help but feel that I am also in this sort of situation. I like to call this a period where life "swirls" past you so fast that you barely have time to blink before everything has gone. I don't knwo whether its me becoming mature or anti-social but lately i feel that the only friend i do have is my boyfriend. That sounds so sad, and i bet those of you who have lots of friends are probably snickering thinking im a complete and utter loner. However the most startling thing is that I don't really care anymore about the opinion of others but rather try to live for myself. Sure i have lots of other friends that you call to say "hi what's up" and things like that but deep down inside i just don't feel that type of connection anymore with anyone but Sanel. Some people may see this as me being dependant on him and perhaps i am probably more than i would like to be. I don't know where this has started, this anti-social behaviour.

Last weekend it was my 18th birthday . A moment i thought i'd be going out clubbing, getting drunk with a whole bunch of friends. But I didnt. and i can't say that i am sad that I didn't either.
Perhaps i am becoming detached from the world or maybe I am just finally growing up and realising who I really am inside.